More About Me

Hello There!

Thanks for visiting my motivational blog! I wrote earlier a little about myself but of course there's more to tell. So you won't get lost, I recommend reading my first 'Welcome' post which introduces myself to my readers.

Now, in continuation, after I kicked my husband out and he moved out of the house, I was scared. I wasn't sure what was going to happen next. I wasn't sure how I was going to pay my bills, what I was going to be left with (the car, furniture, etc). My ex, ended up leaving me the car and had his cousin come pick him up. A few days later he came back in a Uhaul and picked up the rest of his stuff. He left me with most of the things and mainly took his clothes, personal belongings that were his prior to our marriage (CDs, DVDs, etc) and a large weight lifting machine.

Anyway, I had some money in the bank, but not much so I thought I would be ok. I wrote a check out for the rent and mailed it off. Little did I know that my ex went to the bank and cleaned out the account. I was furious because I had no idea how I was going to pay my rent. I called him and he said he needed money to get by since he didn't have a roof over his head or a car. He said he had a bike, which he was using to get back and forth to work and was staying with a cousin and her husband.

So, I ended up borrowing from family and friends, which I hate to do. Like I mentioned in my last post, I had no job but I had bills to pay. I was desperate. My ex refused to give me any money for the kids and I couldn't find work, so I was forced to go to the county for help. I found out there was a lot of programs out there that would help me. There were programs for food (WIC)and Cash aid. There were also programs to help me pay for my electric bill, send me back to school so I could get a good job and become self sufficient and even a program that would help me get a job and even pay for childcare. I felt a whole lot better knowing there was help available for me.

So I applied for them all, got back on my feet and am now going to school. My goal is to become a Mental Health Counselor or Case Manager for the County. I'm taking advantage of all the programs out there so I can give my kids the things they deserve. I also want to 'give back' as they say so that's why I want to become a Mental Health Counselor.

When I first signed up for one of the programs they told me they were going to send me to college and pay for a year's worth of education. Prior to sending me there they wanted me to complete some other classes on Grief and Loss (since I was going through a divorce and had some recent deaths in my family), Self Esteem, Goals, Health and Nutrition, Anger Management and Depression and Anxiety Classes. Since I was newly separated and going through a divorce, they wanted to make sure my head was on straight because they pay for the education in advance and didn't want me quit because I couldn't handle my problems. At first I didn't feel I belonged in those classes because there were women (and a couple of men) there that had some serious depression and anxiety issues. My heart went out to them but I really didn't feel like I fit in. But, I was 'required' to be there if I wanted to receive my cash aid, so I stuck it out. In time, I realized that I did have some issues that needed to be worked out. I also realized that if I had to pay for all these services on my own it would cost me thousands of dollars. So I changed my way of thinking and took advantage of all they offered me.

I learned so much going to those classes. I ended up becoming a mentor there at the school as well. I was a new person, someone my ex did not recognize. I was no longer this timid, woman that would do everything he said and was more like an obedient 'puppy dog' than anything else. I had a mind of my own. I was motivated to try and do new things. I was beginning to like myself again. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel and I was quickly moving toward it.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say in this post is that I have gone through a lot, and I can honestly say I've come out of it a new woman full of motivation and positivity for my future. I CAN and WILL succeed!

Best of Luck to You!

Anna